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变质了

 每段感情不管是友情、爱情或亲情只要没有好好维护好是会变质的。他又接受我的好友邀请了,可是我那么卑微的举动和言语后,我不再对这份友谊有任何的期待。我是很期待长久的感情,就算常联络或失联一段时间,都还是互相保持感情里的热情。我想只有小学同学或大学好朋友能带来这种感觉,而网友不能。对,我就是要头脑清醒,要明白网友只是网友,都是虚拟世界。这个世界能随时消失。只要被对方拉黑了,所有的游戏互动和聊天的内容都没意义了。

我不服他还说是我说不让他找我玩游戏,也说他没有拉黑我,我想找他就群里喊一声。可是关键是我之前和他私聊,为什么不让我和他私聊了?还问我要聊什么。说明我们真不是朋友。反正我是最卑微的那个人。我也不喜欢这样的角色,身边都不缺人 —— 我想随时找人喝茶聊天都能因为认识了好多好多人。可是我不喜欢随意的和任何一个人聊天,我要的是一个有智慧的知己,可是知己不能上网找,只会让自己变得焦虑因为把自己私事透露给陌生人。说不好还有可能被陌生人勒索。

今天的减肥餐是一片面包、一粒鸡蛋、一块鸡胸肉、两勺蘑菇和豆腐、还有鸡汤。我有点困了,不懂是不是因为不够热量导致我这个时候就想睡觉了。好吧,把专注力转移到自己。你让我如此卑微,我是不会再对你不舍了。

至于老师,他很忙很忙可是我也觉得他没有想和我聊天,在群里能聊可是偏偏不找我聊天。好吧,我也不想和他聊了。等他生日那天,把翻译好的小王子给他了,那我的任务也算做完了。

觉觉了。晚安。

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