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自我PUA

 今天学了新词叫“自我PUA”。 我朋友说这个词在中国挺火的。我是第一次接触这个词也不懂是念成“普啊”还是P-U-A。后来我查了意思才知道是个贬义词， 是自我贬低陷入一个内耗循环的情绪。 这也是我感受到被批评的感觉。真没想过老师那么快就批评我了。我真的是整天散发出“自我PUA”的能量吗？ 他说这些的时候我没有任何感觉但是回家好好想一想就觉得有点难过因为这不是我想成为的人。这也不是我想让别人对我的印象。

没关系就当作是他关心我才会批评我。我是会检讨自己是不是想他说的。今天真的有点累，身心累。连玩个游戏都觉得很费劲。 我还是早点睡。

如果老公在那该多好呀因为我很想要一个拥抱。

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