It is funny that you have no idea what upsets me. You got it all wrong. Well, I don’t have to explain it to you as it never occurred to you how certain wordings are distasteful. Stay clueless because I always meant what I said. From the point of wishing you well to finding your love life, I meant every word I said. If you don’t believe me then check your own blog for comments as I dropped one on 4th of January. I’m not a hypocrite and I would never want to do anything to “keep” you when I have nothing to “give” you. Maybe I should help you jog back your memory as you probably have mixed me up with some other girls that you showered your affection on. I realized you say "I Love You" easily to just any person after reading your blog although that was a decade ago but I guess a person will not change much. I also realize your blog looks different on the Web and on my cellphone.
Anyway, when you get all lustful towards me on our game chat, I remembered telling you that I cannot reciprocate so it should stop. I am very clear that I am just a friend and the reason I still cry sometimes is to mourn for the death of our friendship. I wanted friendship all along and I miss those gaming times with Discord on and whenever our team does an amazing shot or a perfect game. (My husband can only shake his head in disbelief and thinks I am really silly to cry for stuff like this). Yes, those were the things I missed and loved about our times together. I also enjoyed our movie night and our conversations. I liked to listen to original stories from a local when it was about the strong little neighboring island. Things just got super messed up when it has sex in it or stuff like wishing I was single and available.
Anyway, let us just assume we never met since both of us love to make our own assumptions. I have given up on people in general and that includes you. You never realize what you did wrong because you don't find it wrong. I felt mocked and disrespected by you. You don't know me at all so stop assuming things. I will never want to be indebted to you nor do I want to have any further involvement with you. I have never held on to you or I wouldn't have deliberately blocked you. You were the friend I always wanted but too bad it was all an illusion. Again we are not similar, if we were similar, you would have stopped reading my blog and you would have continued your life as if I never existed. Please, just go and live your life. I doubt I meant anything to you, I was likely just your rebound from your catfish. I will not allow you to trample on my fragile heart anymore. I broke my principles and unblocked you just to send you your feng shui reading thinking it would serve as a guide to help you but you have to highlight my actions and that resulted in me blocking you back.
I am a person of principles and you mindlessly bruise my ego. I really want us to stop having any more interactions. You were absent from the clan and had stopped contributing and then appeared out of the blue making requests. The clan is very dear to me as it is the only compensation and comfort I have for changing my country's flag. As the clan sub-master, I take my duties seriously and although the clan master doesn't seem to say much and has been giving me full autonomy, I promised myself to be fair to clan members and will not simply exile a clan member without good reasons. Just to let you know, a valuable clan member was not pleased with my actions of exiling others and has decided to leave. The least you can do now is to ensure you are contributing to the clan. I don't have to interact with you out of my sub master duties and you can remain in the clan with peace.
Sincerely, good bye.
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