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Fasting

The other day I encountered a very irritable superior and I thought she got up from the wrong side of the bed. I consciously avoided her knowing that she had scolded some juniors for something trivial. A week later we somehow got the opportunity to talk and she shared that she was feeling pretty horrible at the start of her intermittent fasting journey. I think I could comprehend her feelings as I too did intermittent fasting before. The reason I did it was to shed all the weight I gained during my primary exam but I think just by intermittent fasting alone the effect isn't great as I was losing muscle mass. After I paired it with exercise, I felt my body was less flabby and toned and I looked healthier. It has been more than a year since I practiced intermittent fasting and I get to maintain my weight and eat to my heart's content. However, lately, I decided to resume intermittent fasting as part of my spiritual journey and to prepare myself to eat one meal only so that I don't have to spend time preparing for food and I can also save up on expenditures (Okay, I'm not that desperate but yeah it is one of the benefits). 


I somehow discovered that when I am craving something badly and persevere to not give in to my cravings, my general mood is better. It is like a strong internal struggle and after "winning" the struggle all I feel is just calmness. I also observed that I have more tolerance towards things. For example, having seen my lousy schedule I did not feel the need to feel unjust but instead, I just thought "oh well, someone got to do that on call and it just so happened it's me, no big deal" or when my colleague kept whining about her schedule or the roster maker or just love to complain for no reason, I somehow able to go into Zen mode and phase out whatever they are saying and in the end tell them to let's move on with life (Not sure if they will like that but oh well what else can I say?). I feel exceptionally positive and good on the inside although having a piece of juicy fried chicken now would probably feel wonderful too. 


I am supposed to do a gratitude fast by just being vegan for a month if I get my wish granted but somehow I am not very confident about it as the last I was a vegetarian for 9 months was when I was 18 because my of a book and my teacher. The first time I was a vegetarian was at the age of 12. I recalled my teacher saying "Imagine if other species were to eat human beings, imagine humans being hung like pork on display or human babies being served on a platter". I somehow felt rather uneasy with the image that crossed my mind with those words and I immediately refused to take meat. That lasted for 3 months as I was being scolded by my family and relatives and they insisted that I was growing and supposed to have a balanced diet. I could still recall all the delicious food I had declined during a cousin's birthday party because I badly wanted to try them and one of them was some soup with cous cous I think. Maybe I should get myself some cous cous someday as I have never eaten one. The second time was when I was 18 and it was because of a book that talks about the consequences of taking meat which relates to having more poultry farms and methane production thus harming the earth and its ozone layer. I was convinced by that book and was a vegetarian for 9 months. The reason I stopped was when I was not getting my periods on a regular basis and it was annoying whenever it surprised me without me being prepared or me wasting pads thinking it would arrive but it didn't. 


I think after eating meat for so many years, I wonder how will I feel being a vegetarian for a month. I was thinking of taking a different approach and acting as if I have already had my wish granted which means I should start my one-month vegetarian journey. That would translate to me cooking again as it is so hard to get a decent vegetarian meal from the shops nearby. Or I could try being a vegetarian for a week each month. I think I will first plan out my menu before I jump into being a vegetarian and see if it is doable for my current schedule. I could already think of all the yummy things I love and the easiest would be to make vegetable soup every day with some noodles. I could also eat some oats with fruits on days when I am too lazy to cook. I personally think overnight oats is so delicious that I often look forward to eating them. I shall make a few jars tonight to bring for on-call tomorrow! 


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