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I am really tired lately and I thought I was hallucinating when I think I saw a white object moved from my bed to the space beneath my bed. To make sure I am not seeing things, I peep under my bed just to see a flea infested ginger coloured cat looking at me in fear and was hissing aggressively. I wondered was it because of my carelessness or inattention that have resulted in the cat entering my room. Since I keep my room door shut there is no way the cat could enter unless someone let it in. I managed to grab it by the back of its neck and take it outdoors reprimanding it not to come into my room again. Thereafter I dusted by bed and checked for any dirt but could not find any and had thought that maybe when I opened the door to go into my room the cat sneaked in and so it was only in my room for a brief moment. Nevertheless, I felt rather itchy sleeping on my bed last night. It was likely psychological because the cat was very unkept with clear signs of skin infections. I do not seem to have any rash on me today and as I head out for work I saw the cat and 2 kittens outside my door. Apparently it is a female cat and it was feeding its kittens. The kittens had very bad skin conditions too and I wish I had some ivermectin with me to help get them back to good health. I ensured no cats entered my room and left for work knowing that my door is shut well and I also locked the grill with additional padlock. 

Today as I got home I saw the same cat sitting on my bed and I was shocked. I wondered if any naughty children actually pushed open my wooden door to let the cat in as it is impossible for the cat to be there. I had so many speculations and again I caught the cat and put it out of my room. However since I could see some soil on my bedsheets I decided to put all my beddings for washing and clean my room. I was also worried if the cat actually cuddled my soft toys as it would be very troublesome to wash and dry them (most of the time the soft toy’s quality and aesthetics will drop markedly after washing). I was already stressed with the little time I have and so decided to try visiting the laundry shop. For the past 14 months I have been manually washing all my clothes including my beddings and it sure is time consuming and tiring. I was surprised to know that to get 5 days worth of laundry to be done it only cost MYR 12 (wash and dry). The boy manning the shop was kind  enough to explain to me how it works as I was clueless and told me that their services is inclusive of the detergent as I did not bring mine. I thought I needed to load coins into the machine so was actually carrying a pouch full of coins. The boy offered to do my laundry for me if I do not want to wait for it for an additional MYR 1 and I immediately agreed as I wanted to go for a jog. So I basically hand him my laundry, paid and left. Before leaving I actually asked him if I could leave my pouch full of coins at the shop as I want to jog and it would be noisy and heavy to jog with coins and he allowed me to leave my belongings. I do not know why I felt I could trust the boy perhaps because of his kind face and helpful demeanour but as I jog I felt it is quite careless of me to leave my money on the hands of stranger just like that. I was also mentally calculating how much of money that pouch actually have and it could possibly be somewhere around MYR20 -30. 

Anyway after an hour, I completed my run and picked up my nice warm laundry and my coin pouch. Again the boy was pleasant and I felt slightly embarrassed for interrupting his prayer time. However he did not mind and ask me if I needed any help to take the laundry out of the dryer and I told him I can do it myself. I just felt that it is so nice to have helpful people existing and people who are simple and honest. I think not everyone would have allowed me to keep my belongings in their shop as it can be viewed as something troublesome or something that may invite trouble such as if the item goes missing or if I accuse anyone of stealing what is in the pouch. I mean these scenarios do happen sometimes and that is why the society is becoming less caring and is always full of paranoia and suspicion of other people’s actions. 

It has been 24 hours since I become clan-less now on GunBound mobile and it does feel a little weird. I guess I’m not used to seeing the absence of the words “cute cute Singapore clan” under my name and I habitually kept clicking on the clan list to check if there’s any clan requests which I have no access to anymore. I do feel sad to leave my clan and I’m going to miss the silver crown next to my name as the sub-master. Then again I realised maybe it was for the better. I am slightly addicted to the game and perhaps by losing the clan and the sub-master position I wouldn’t play as much. I played a few games but I don’t see the need to achieve 12 wins or play world boss to earn clan points. I also did not add some of the clan members who I play with before and have no ways of adding them unless I meet them again in a battle randomly. It all feels very strange when something familiar is absent. 

Gosh tonight’s dinner was too spicy and I am having epigastric pain. I hope it can go away so that I can enjoy my fresh sweet smelling bed. Oh and I know how the cat came into my room, a strong wind solved the mystery for me. The conclusion is I need to get my door fixed the lock doesn’t seems to work causing the door to be easily opened by a soft push. Tomorrow I will need go temporarily tie my doorknob to my grill to prevent the cat from entering again. 

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