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Thermostat

 I am positive the thermostat in the hospital was wrong. At 24 degree Celsius I would be enjoying the temperature without any blanket. I just realised this error as I returned to my rented room that is feeling like a furnace right now. Based on the weather app on my phone the temperature now is 28 degree Celsius whereas the temperature at home is 19 degree Celsius, this is an extremely huge difference and I am feeling rather tortured by the hot weather. If there isn’t any mosquitoes and I’m not living in a dengue prone area I would definitely just sleep outdoors tonight but then again my house owner’s house is not gated. I doubt my room is 28 degree Celsius as the walls are still emitting heat and my bed feels so warm, I think the heat from the earlier 35 degree Celsius have not completely dissipated from my room. I think my thermoregulation centre is working really hard these past few days being subjected to extremes of temperature and it explains the nasal congestion I had momentarily after the hospital visit. 

Mom is right, nothing else matters right now than to clear my exams so that I can continue to plan for my next journey. I certainly want to live at a place I can call home, and I do not want to rent anymore. I only have 4 places to go within the country if I do not want to rent but out of the 4 places, only 3 of it has family near me. My superior told me that living a nomad life is part of being a doctor and I was shocked with this as no one ever told me this fact and I failed to observe the obvious. Another interesting conversation I had with my partner was to learn how to cut loss. There’s a career opportunity near home to work as a general practitioner and the income is quite good too with much more flexible timing and no on calls. The only downside is that I won’t get to practice as an anaesthetist and would need to pay the penalty of breaking my scholarship bond which cost 350k (I don’t feel like paying this sum but if I choose not to I will most probably be living another 7 years of nomadic life). Another portion of me would love to do subspecialty and that means more uncertainties in life and more debts. 

Gosh it’s almost 1 am and I still feel it is too warm to sleep but I am sleepy. Where would I want to be in 2 years from now? Gosh if I can strike 4D or 6D I will just break the bond and do whatever I want to. However if I never buy then how to strike? Hope this year I can get some inspiration on what numbers to buy. Then again, if I really did win some money enough to pay off the bond, am I willing to give away that money easily? I guess not. 

Tomorrow onwards I need to camp at the hospital I work in because I will never be able to feel like a sane person with the weather being so hot. Just another 5 months to exams and I must keep my eyes on the goal! 

Things to do when I get up: 

- copy my thesis into a pen drive and send it for printing 

- send abstract to the clinical research personnel 

- do my oncall claim for April 

- type my dissertation title into some form I am required to fill on the department’s personal assistance desktop (I think they are just too lazy to type themselves)

- enquire if I could run off to another course in August since I’m already “running away” in July 

- distribute royal chive to my landlord and neighbour 

- shop for carrots, potato and garlic (it is so sad that this time the carrots are not ready for harvest and all I brought back was cauliflowers and royal chives) 

- call up the society to ask how can I prove that I am a member in order to apply for something 


Okay that’s all. 


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