I always believe that every encounter in this universe is not a coincident. Last few days I met a lot of people, some were new people and some were people I know from the past. Due to the limited time I did not get to mingle and talk much with the people I know from the past let alone take photos with them. I was just living in the moment and any photos taken during the last few days were all captured by my friends. The only photos I took were the presentation slides that interests me. I was enjoying the time spent away from work although I technically spent 7 times the amount of whatever sponsor I received for the Pre-congress workshop. I never intended to attend the congress as it was held in the same venue again and I just travelled to the same city in less than a month ago. However life is full of surprises and making an impromptu decision to go for this congress was a great idea. During the congress, there are many exhibitions by drug and medical device companies. Since I am only a trainee, my aim was just to visit the booths to gain knowledge on new drugs and devices and at the same time grab whatever goodies (free gifts) that they can offer.
I think each year the free stuff are getting much cheaper and not as exciting. Gone are the days where there are free laptop bags or books that are very informative and helpful. The things they hand out these days are pens/ sweets/ chocolates/ drinks/ note pad/ hand sanitisers. Some representatives even hides the free stuff and only takes them out when I enquire if there are any “free pen”. It is kinda hilarious but yes my focus was at free pens because I find myself always running out of pens all the time. Thank heavens they still continue to give out free pens although it is a very basic souvenir, it is a useful one. I have yet to unpack but I think I took a total of at least 20 pens from visiting all the exhibitions (there were about 45 booths if I’m not mistaken). I particularly like the pen from Medtronic and Fresenius Kabi. Anyway as an end user to their products, I would say their companies make good products and I observed that the post purchase follow up is also good.
So what has all this got to do about fate? First of all I guess I’m fated to go to the congress because it wasn’t in my plans. Secondly going there ignites a different passion in me and I have a clearer idea on what sub-speciality I want to pursue. I know I have not graduated from my current studies and thinking about sub-speciality might sound too far fetched but I think it is good to know what I want for the future. Having a child like believe is always awesome and we should never doubt ourselves. It reminds me of the times when I was growing up and each year my teacher will put down the top 3 career that I have in mind into a column at the back of my report card. Back then as a child I wouldn’t know how to achieve those stuff but somehow whatever I wanted to be back then is what I am now. For that I would say I was really adamant and resilient in pursuing my dreams. Thirdly, I find that although I meet and talk to many new people, somehow some people happened to be more “familiar”. I’m not sure how to explain it, was it because I bump into them multiple times or because every time there’s an eye contact there will be a polite exchange of greetings or perhaps we met before at a different venue.
I do have a good memory and I could easily recall many of the sales rep whom I have met before. I may not know their names but I can recognise their face because there’s really not many sales representatives and being involved in many congress/ workshops, I often meet the same people more than once. However this time, there’s this one particular sales representative whom I seem to encounter on a daily basis for the last 3 days. To make it even more “coincidental” I saw him at the airport and found out he is boarding the same flight as me. I wanted to laugh when I board the plane and realised that my randomly assigned seat was actually next to him. I immediately identify that this must be a scheduled encounter sent by the universe for a reason.
We started to exchange polite conversations and unknowingly spent the entire flight conversing which was roughly 2 hours. Surprisingly the conversation seems to go beyond work and the exchange turns out to be enriching and healing for me. Somehow I’m not sure why did certain conversations took place despite him being a total stranger. I can see that he is easily 8-10years younger in age but he have a peaceful air around him and I felt safe to hold a conversation with him. We did not keep in touch and I only asked for his name prior going our separate ways. I felt very much lighter at heart for no reason and I just take it that his presence was likely an arrangement made by the universe to act as a buffer in attaining situational awareness. I do think for the past few months of my life, I lost the ability to consciously analyse my life and have been using too much of my emotions in dealing with non work related matters.
Another weird occurrence was a text I received today from a colleague. I somehow sense something is amiss at times but I don’t really know what is it. My heart sank a little when he asked if I could share my testimony regarding my relationship with my partner and based on the tone of the text it seems like he is in a doubtful state. I do not know if I am the best person to give him any testimony but for now I will pray for some guidance before I decide to talk to him in person. I am definitely not familiar with him as a friend although we did have lunch thrice throughout the entire month of working in the same ward. If at all I could help another person I would but matters involving the heart is always fragile and I am concern on how my sharing would impact his thoughts towards his relationship. There is no guideline or manual to relationships and what works for one may not work for others. I am also worried to know he have such thoughts crossing his mind especially the sentence that goes “Still the same feeling as when you started or already evolve into something else”. As far as I know he have been married for quite some time and have 2 children and I just hope whatever he and his wife are facing, they can find a solution together. Then again I wonder why did he chose me of all people to share regarding relationship. It is a little ironic for me given the fact that I was myself struggling. I guess it must be fate.
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